Monday, March 28, 2011

With my bachelor's degree within reach, I just have to come up with $75 to pay for the graduation fee, I am feeling at a complete loss.   I felt so strongly that teaching was what I was supposed to do.   The struggles and blocks I faced while pursuing my degree were extensive.  I took them in stride; I felt I was being tested to work hard and persevere. I just needed to prove that this was what I wanted and the path I was meant to be on.  Despite the struggles to finish each semester, I did just that and I persevered and pushed through.  Three separate semesters presented major roadblocks to student teaching.  These roadblocks were not small, they prevented student teaching and after the third one, I had to take a step back and reevaluate what path I was supposed to be following.  At this point in time, teaching is not in my cards.  When something speaks that loudly, it pays to heed the notice.  I will pay the fee; I will obtain the degree I struggled to earn, which is starting to feel a bit useless at this point.  I know I can be stubborn and perhaps that is an additional lesson that I should have taken the time to step back, to breath, to consider why finishing was causing such a struggle.  I will get beyond this, I will find a the path I am meant to be on, and when it finally comes it will be all the sweeter.

1 comment:

cecile said...

It was a long hard road for you. I can't wait to see/hear where your journey takes you!